Friday, June 13, 2014

the sysadmin prayer

It's Friday the 13th - good time for the sysadmin prayer.

First, place your fingers over the asdf and jkl; keys.

Now repeat this:
May all Linux machines,
forever be,
Ctrl Alt and Delete free.

Monday, April 14, 2014

I don't love this world

when the moon doth not shine.
and we have no more wine.
then the world will deny.
that it knew, yet still asks why.

when the sun doth go dark.
and dogs stop to bark.
then all the world will see.
as the captives go free.

when all chains have been
and all hearts are unfrozen.
then i'll slow down and turn.
to watch this world burn.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Peace over Passion

Passion is the lowest level of human life. None can descend lower. In its chilling swamps and concealing darkness creep and crawl the creatures of the sunless world. Lust, hatred, anger, covetousness, pride, vanity, greed, revenge, envy, back-biting, lying, theft, deceit, treachery, cruelty, suspicion, jealousy—such are the brute forces and blind, unreasoning impulses that inhabit the underworld of passion, and roam, devouring and devoured, in the rank primeval jungles of the human mind.
- James Allen

Passion is the opposite of Peace. There is nothing that can be done with passion that can't be done better with Peace.

The End.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

A Psalm to Linux

A little humour in celebration of a Thursday morning victory.

Oh holy Linux, holy Linux.
Thou art forever my only love.
My heart be filled with joy at your Enter.

Oh holy Linux, holy Linux.
We bring you praise.
We give you all the glory.

Oh holy Linux, holy Linux.
May you forever be,
Ctrl, Alt and Delete free.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

A Day of Glory and Rapture

I love you Father and write this post for you.

I love you Ursula for sharing this with me, and making it all possible by being you and being born on the 7th of October.

Now. It starts with a dream...

I was cut of from wisdom.
Betrayed by those held dear,
I leave it all behind.
Descending into darkness,
I meet with Desire.
Her beauty overwhelms me.
I can not return.
She threatens my life.
The saints and loved ones intervene.
Then Death approaches,
accompanied by Mistress.
He smiles and greets.

In the morning I wake, confused by what this all means.
The day starts well.
Then Desire threatens with Sorrow.
And I surrender to sweet Fury, 
retreating by foot.

I take nothing. 
No money. 
No keys. 
No shoes. 
No phone. 
Only my body and I, with clothing as cover.

Not far from beginning,
an angel approaches.
"Turn around, goto the Father's house", he says.
"It's too late", having already started.
"You can make it".
I pause.
Insistently he Insists.

Immediately I turn. 
180 degrees.
Walking towards a promise.
A joy fills me fully
as a voice comes from Heaven.
"Leave it all behind and follow me"

All the worries and fears,
none of them exist.
A promise of salvation,
on a road paved by Spirit.
For the love of a Father,
I'm walking with Jesus.

Arriving by grace.
Throat parched with thirst.
Struck blind by darkness.
As I enter His Glory,
Christ is all I perceive.

Refreshed with His Water.
Possessed by His Spirit.
Father arrives.
To all of His children,
with a cloud of loving embrace.

With one heart proclaim, 
that we are in Heaven.
All chains are broken.
All sins forgiven.
All thirst is quenched.

All knees do bow.
All tongues confess.
The Love of the Father,
is the only desire.
The Peace of the Father,

Monday, July 22, 2013

A Glimpse into Meditation

I recently heard this Zen saying which I adapted and adopted with good results. It now goes:
- Meditate for 2 minutes every morning. If you don't have time, meditate for an hour.

Making this a commitment is a good way to get a practice going, as you only require a minimum of 2 minutes every morning. I have learned that the intent to meditate is much more important than chasing the fruits of meditation, which I'm not going to delve into. The fruits are simply the spoils that give us the love to continue and come as needed or deserved. Usually when you start such a practice schedule or introduce meditation into your life as an uncertain soul, you will find you need to lean on will power a bit. For this, 2 minutes is an easy commitment to keep to.

In the Buddhist Insight Meditation (Vipassana) it is taught that meditation is something you start over all the time. This can be seen in a single meditation session as much as it can be seen in your overall meditation practice. It can even be seen in the continuous death/rebirth cycle our souls are passing through. We start, and then we end. After this we start again. 

Picture a basic breath awareness meditation where you watch your breath and then as thoughts come along, simply acknowledge the thought and return to your breathing. When meditating as human beings, unintended thoughts tend to interrupt your focus frequently. The point here is to remember to simply acknowledge the thought, forgive the thought, forgive yourself for being distracted by the thought, and calmly return to your breath awareness.

So spiritual practice is less about labour and more about intent. Try and find 2 minutes every morning to do a simple breath awareness meditation. Make this your practice. If on one morning you find yourself having more time and wanting to do a longer session, do so gently. Remember to keep your minimum requirement to the 2 minutes of awareness each morning. Over time the length of your practices will tend to gently increase as you discover the joy's of meditation, sometimes decreasing a bit to fit life's ways, sometimes changing on a day to day basis. Simply choose afresh each time what you feel like the particular morning, staying committed to doing at least 2 minutes! On days where it drops right down to the minimum 2 minutes, remember to stay unattached to the length of time. Fruits stem from, but are separate from practice.

Forgiveness is actually a desired practice. If something in your life interrupts your thoughts/practice, the act of forgiving yourself will help towards healing that problem more than any other attempt you could make. So forgiveness should be welcomed and not avoided.

Thus, it's good to lose yourself into a train of thought, or have little or less time to meditate. They are all opportunities to practice unconditional forgiveness, which surpasses the power of the practice. 

When you do have more time to meditate, 
  be thankful for it happens by grace. 
On days you don't have time, 
For you have an opportunity to
  practice forgiveness.

God Bless You!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Skyrim Launcher Doesn't Work - Launcher Restarts

Today, Skyrim suddenly decided to stop working. I would launch it, press the Play button (on the launcher window) and then just have it reload after asking for Administrator privileges.

If you have this problem, to fix this you have 2 options.

1. Run Directly from Game File
  1. Navigate to your Steam installation (By default C:\Program Files (x86)\Steam)
  2. Then goto the SteamApps\common\skyrim directory
  3. From here just run TESV.exe directly.
  4. If it's missing, goto option 2.
2. The game file TESV.exe or any other file is missing.
  1. In Steam, right click Skyrim
  2. Select Properties
  3. Goto Local Files tab
  4. Click "Verify Integrity of Game Cache"
  5. It should download all broken/missing files.
  6. This didn't seem to fix it for me first time. So if it still doesn't work, try doing this same fix it just one more time.